Inside my mind's eye lies.

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You may find this collection a bit odd but I think Yoshikazu Yamagata is amazing. I absolutely adore the hair (gray is my favourite colour when it comes to hair!) and the styling.

"FEED ME SEYMOUR!"

One of those classic movies that I love and totally forgot about. The best part from the movie. AH AH AH AH hehehehehee.

The Future is Scary.

So as you may have noticed I've found a new favourite spot to take photographs; my closet! Now in these photos I experimented with a red lipstick I had long forgotten in my make-up bag and used a brush to apply it instead of just straight from the stick and it's a major difference, at least from what I can gather. I can better outline my lips and reach the perfection levels that are satisfactory to my Virgo heart. I find it added to this outfit anyway since the colors are cool.

The grey tank top is from an escapade of my "younger days", bought off these awesome kids I befriended in Union Square and chilled with for a couple of days after that. You can maximize the photos and view it in it's original, larger size to see the graphics. Turns out that now this happens to be my favourite top that I own. All on a whim. I wish I would have bought every single one he was selling but oh well :(

The pants portion of this was bought off a Chinese site not too long ago that I just fell in love with. It's big and poofy and kinda looks like a shirt from the front. Haven't worn half the stuff I bought off that site because some of them are sweaters but I guess the nights are starting to get cooler now so hopefully I'll be able to wear my stuff soon.

This weekend was supposed to be eventful but plans fell through. I'm kind of relieved in a sense because I'm so prone to falling into patterns and familiarity. I'm so used to just staying at home that it's become sort of scary to leave the house so I guess I just need a push and a shove with a side of support *ahem* from youknowwho -_- But for now I am free to be trapped in my house, slightly content and I'll probably spend the day with the hubby, watching movies after he's done handling his shit. ♥

Indoor Person

Waves

Being in a relationship with someone who is completely insecure with themselves is the worst. There’s always the trust issue and the constant questioning of my actions and things that just should never come up in a conversation between a couple who supposedly loves each other so much. There are important issues that I would rather focus on than some childish bullshit based upon jealousy and ignorance. If you don’t trust me at this point then that’s not my problem. I’ve tried the best I can to gain that trust and if this continues then it will be your downfall, not mine. I’m 21 years old going on 22 and you’re a very young 19 because I can feel the maturity difference in your actions and thoughts towards me and this is something I don’t want, certainly don’t fucking need in my life.

I feel like I just deserve so much better than this.

I've been in a long-distance relationship for the past year and it's been nothing but drama and pain. It hasn't gotten better, just worst. I just think we're incompatible and will always be that way. That us being together is just some fantasy I've let myself believe all this time but as time passes it just comes crashing down. I feel like I've been stuck in a rut for a year and need to be set free. All this bullshit holding me back from living my life. I'm too young for any of this. I should be going out and partying and making mistakes like everyone else my fucking age. Instead I'm stuck with a fucking asshole who only cares about himself, who won't change and at this point I don't even want him to. 

I just want out.