Tuesday, January 14, 2014

10 Days in California

Christopher and I in the hotel.

Well I can't say I've been keeping up with this blog much. It seems like life is always pushing me into complete isolation, regretfully. I've been prone to blogging throughout the years but lately there's been so much going on, mentally and physically (or lack thereof) that it's prevented me from being the productive person I am. I'll keep this as simple as humanly possible because I hate to ramble on, as it gets confusing and overwhelming.

Driving around with Chris. Best part of the trip. Well, I loved every part.

For the past 4 years I've been in a relationship with the most amazing individual I've ever had the pleasure of knowing. We've had a lot of ups and downs, as I'm sure most people experience in any endeavor they're dedicated in pursuing. I never knew myself, my strengths and my weaknesses, in such retrospect and detail as I do now. I've learned so much from every step I've taken, cause I know where I want to be in the long-run and that's with him. Every struggle helps me to become stronger and dedicated to this. More than I ever thought possible to be honest. I used to see things on such a minimal scale. Taking things for granted, letting opportunities slip through my hands, "going with the flow" just because i had no direction or set goal. Now I have everything to look forward to. I know where I want to be and every second that goes by, is one second closer to getting to that point. I can say to myself and to everyone around me that I'm honestly happy. I haven't been able to say that for some time now and for that I am thankful.

My gear.
First stop was to buy cigarettes and gas of course.

I've also had the opportunity to meet some great people this year. Mostly at my new job. They've been there for me when I hit rock bottom and I can't express how much I appreciate their support and strength when I'm at my weakest.

2013 was filled with a lot of endings for me. But with every end, there is a beginning. A chance to start again and to make things better the next time around. Most importantly it's about learning from every experience. Taking what you can from it and implementing that into your future. We are only human and we do makes mistakes, it's a part of life. But none of of would be who we are if we didn't pick ourselves up after we've fallen. The scars will heal sooner or later, I've learned that much.

Now it's 2014. I've visited California twice to see my boyfriend. This past week was the 2nd trip (the first was in October). It's funny when I think about it, I've booked each trip on special days. The first was booked on September 20th, for my birthday. This past trip I booked on Christmas. Each one a present to myself. I needed to be with him. Now I guess the 3rd time is the charm? I mean 3 is my favorite number so I'm quite excited to see what happens next. Hopefully a permanent situation for the both of us. I arrived back in Virginia last night. It's weird trying to get used to being in my own room again. It feels so unfamiliar. I feel.. homesick. Like I'm supposed to be with him and anywhere else is just a place I'm trapped in. Certain phrases probably come to mind. "Home is where the heart is" probably fits this situation perfectly. I've grown out of my surroundings apparently and grown closer to him. This year will be the most eventful, I'm certain of it. Watch.

He always opens the door for me. SO sweet. Prolly didn't think I noticed either but I did.

My favourite part of being in California. Palm Trees. Everywhere.

Constantly out chyea smoking.

Bruises. Haha...

Until next time!